Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Sorry for the short post on the ring last night. I was out with D and our friend SB so it would have been rude to have been blogging on my phone like that.

But I'm so happy the way the band turned out! So worth the 4 weeks I was without my ring. We were really surprised when we saw it because it was bigger than what e thought we would get. The diamonds are bigger the band is wider etc...and we looked at the insurance appraisal and it turns out it's worth almost 800$ more than we paid for it which is great when we go to get it insured. So together with my engagement ring and my band together, I have 1.07 carats. It sort of stunned me when I read out the details. I never thought I would have that much on me at one time.

So last night after we packed up for the night (it was 1 am) I sort of razzed on D. After we had dropped SB off at her appartment, Dave asked me why i was being so snotty. I told him I'm tired, I'm not sleeping and I just want to be in bed to get whatever sleep I can get. He asked me why I wasn't sleeping and I basically broke down and told him everything that's on my plate. I told him how work is so crazy that i can't stay on top of my own crap, the wedding is less than 8 weeks away and there's still a million things to do, I'm putting every penny I earn to the downpayment for our house so I'm basically living off my credit card and his paychecks, my bridesmaids are incompetent and are dropping the ball (they keep asking me stuff about my own shower which i don't have time to plan that's why they're doing it). I'm stretched so thin, answering to everyone else's schedule that I don't have a moment for myself. At the end of the day I'm too exhausted to go to the gym and work out. All I want to do is go home and get into bed. But I can't. Even on the weekends, I have some sort of responsibility or appointment or errand to run. D works weekends and is up at 6 and I'm up with him to drive him in for 8 (we only have 1 car) just so I can do the things I need to do in the day. I run around all day and then pick him up and then we go out and do something he wants to do.

He asked me why I didn't tell him about the way I was feeling at all. I told him he's been so upset with work and stressed and grumpy I didn't want to add to his stress at all. I didn't want to burden him with more stress and frustration. So, I just took in his stress on top of my stress. He appologized to me (not sure why really because he didn't really do anything directly) and since last night he's been really attentive and I think re realizes that I need help with what I'm doing.

It felt good to finally get it all off my chest and I was able to sleep a LITTLE better last night. this morning I've been nauseous so I didn't take my diet pills and I had a couple spoonfulls of plain oatmeal just to have something in my stomach to try to settle it. I don't think I'll have the urge or need to eat today. I have a legitimate stomach ache. Never thought I would be happy to have one of these :)

Talk to you later lovelies.

PS

Welcome Kat! I love your fashion blog!

2 comments:

  1. awww, thank you!

    and i'm sorry about all the stress...
    :-/

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  2. Hang in there! It's great that you spoke to your Fiance to tell him what's bugging you. Communication is so important. You are nearing the home stretch of all this wedding stuff and it goes so fast so try to take a deep breath and enjoy some of it. Your ring is pretty!

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