Thursday, December 30, 2010

Looking back and Moving forward

2 days left of 2010.
What have I accomplished?

Lost 28lbs since february
Got moved out of a job and told I suck.
Took a massive pay cut.
Got married
Bought a house

It's been sort of an OK year. The bad feels like it outweighs the good but the good is clearly what I should be focusing on.

I'm getting so bad at managing my money. I've been called this week by 2 different creditors for my phone bill and a credit card. I'm broke until next Friday and I have to pay 300$ in bills and my money after my mortgage is $500 for 2 weeks so basically I will only have $200 to last me until mid-January. I'm definitely feeling the squeeze.

Therefore, my top New Year's Resolution for 2011 is to get a Supervisory job ($8 pay raise/hr) at my current workplace or a whole new job by the spring. I don't need to be in anything special but I do need to be making at least what I was when I was back in the office.

Resolution number 2 is a two-parter:

1) I want to lose another 20 lbs by 2012 (I know I've given a lot of leeway for this one but my metabolism has really slowed down so I'm giving my body some time.)

2) Work out more. Whether that means joining a gym or a yoga studio or just getting into the habit of using my workout DVDs or video games on a regular basis. This is part 2 of  this one because I  need to workout to lose more weight. I want to be 118 and I know that restriction alone will do nothing for me at this point so I need to step up my expenditure.

I don't think that I need any other resolutions other than those two. I hope that I'm successful and I definitely meet my first goal. So if any of my Canadian readers hear of job openings in the Nations Capital if you could send me the link it would be greatly appreciated!! :)

Good luck to all of you on your New Year's Resolutions!!!

Monday, December 27, 2010


I'm a size 27 jean!! All the jeans you all saw in my previous pics were 29s (I knew they were big but not 2 sizes big!)

So here are my new guess jeans and a shirt I bought yesterday at the sales. I also got 2 slouchy sweaters.

Well at least there has been some progress since the summer!

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So here is my progress pic. Still bloated and gross but I didn't want to skip another progress week.

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Friday, December 24, 2010


Merry Christmas lovelies!!

thought I would pose in front of my tree with the peppermint lolly my hubby got me in my stocking.

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Thursday, December 23, 2010

I'm sorry

I'm sorry lovelies that I didn't post this week at all (progress picture included). I've just been having an insanely fat feeling week. I'm feeling under the weather and I'm coming up to my period so I'm retaining water like crazy. My weight is still sitting at it's usual spot right under 138 (137.8 as per my scale) with fluctuations of +1 lb, but I just feel incredibly massive and embarrassed to put any photos up of me right now. I know that if I put up a picture it will probably look mostly the same as last week's but the way I'm feeling is just not confident.

As per my eating, I've done very well this week. I've stayed under 800 all week (except for wednesday). Yesterday at work I basically hit a brick wall about a third of the way into my shift and had absolutely no energy to do anything at all. Obviously, it was stupidly and rediculously busy and I had to have some sort of energy boost. So I started off with 2 lattes (2% since the resto doesn't do plain coffee or non-fat) then I had my salad and my apple (all on my first break and the salad was supposed to last 2 breaks) and then on my second break since I had no food I ate candy and chocolate. I don't know where I ended up yesterday with my food but I know it wasn't good. Today I only had about 650 today (should have been a fast but I had lunch with my parents). Tomorrow is a perfect day. I will be having only 300 cals. I will be on my own all day with nothing to eat other than vegetable broth (15cals) and clementines (30cals). I will also hopefully fit in a workout between the painters coming to touch  up the fresh mud patches and Christmas Eve mass tomorrow night.

Anyways, again, I'm sorry my lovelies. This monday I will DEFINITELY post a new picture.

I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas or a Happy Holidays!!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

I would like to say hello to my new followers! I looked to see if you had blogs of your own but there were no links or they didn't work! I would love to read about you lovlies if you have a blog so please post your links in the comments for this post!!! I would also like to put out a special hello to Harlow. She was the first blog I found in this community and seeing her in my followers list was the best thing of my day today! I hope I don't bore you all with my constant babbling :p

So I seem to be hovering between 140 and 138. I dipped to 137 yesterday morning but this morning I was back at 138. I think I'm going to re-inflate my exercise ball and start doing free weights on it (as per Harlow's suggestion) early in the mornings. I actually can't wait until my basement is fully set up so I have room to do my P90X videos. I did that a bit before the wedding before I discovered Bikram.

Tomorrow I'm going to have my second phone date with my Ana-buddy/pen pal. Last sunday was the first time we ever spoke on the phone. It was amazing! It was like we had been friends forever and had spoken over the phone countless times. I'm not sure if I've ever mentioned her before but we met back at the beginning of the year on Pretty Thin and bonded over the fact we were both getting married in the fall. We exchanged e-mails and then BBM PINs and have been talking ever since. We even sent eachother wedding gifts! Anyways needless to say I'm super excited to talk to her again.

After that I'll be heading downtown to finish off my Christmas shopping. Just my dad and my grandfather left and stocking stuffers for D. So that's almost done with and all the walking of tomorrow and the lack of lunch will be a good thing. However, I have my department Christmas party tomorrow night at a restaurant called Jack Astors. Basically it's a family style restaurant (lots of fried foods and high calorie pastas and such. So I must tread carefully. I have to order something so people don't bug me but I also have to order something that wont make me hate myself.

Anyways wish me luck tomorrow loves!

Monday, December 13, 2010


As a change I thought I would let you all see a front shot. Standing sideways one can suck in and deceive, but this way you all can see me with no smoke and mirrors. My love handles are ever present but I'm not sure if you can see that I am starting to get a little bit of a space between my lower thighs. I noticed it Saturday night. It's definitely a start!

Let me know what you all think and if you hane some love handle busting exercises or tips please pass them along!!
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Monday Monday

Hello again lovelies!

I'm sorry I'm not soo great at posting recently. Monday is really the only day where I can post without being hounded by D about what I'm doing. He always pokes his nose into what I'm doing when I'm on the computer. (Note to self: get an internet cable for the computer upstairs)

This weekend wasn't an absolute fail but it wasn't the greatest. I didn't have any food at work on Saturday except for some salad, but I did go out for sushi with T that evening. We both kind of went crazy on the sushi. We then saw Burlesque (OMFG AMAZING MOVIE!!) I don't know how Christina got herself that tiny and then so fat so quickly. Has anyone noticed that she's gotten quite chubby lately?? Anyways, she had the perfect petite body but still had all of her awesome curves!!

Yesterday I think was a relative success :) I didn't eat ANYTHING all day until my parents came over for the dinner I cooked. I made roast lamb with a roasted pepper sabayon and I also made asparagus and a green salad. My portion was relatively small and I didn't even finish it. So a small success for me! yay!

I've started a diet today that is going to be super easy. Basically there's a set food list (no processed foods or dairy and lean meats and fish and loads of veggies and fruit) but you have to eat 1 apple with every meal and you can snack on apples all day long. There's not counting but the whole point is to fill up on apples so you don't fill up on other stuff. I'm going to be doing this diet for the next 12 days and hopefully I can drop down a couple pounds :) I'm doing this diet with my texting buddy. This diet is also great because it doesn't seem like you're dieting but only eating clean. I have to go out today and get the rest of the food on  my food list since I didn't have time to get it all yesterday.

Today is another busy day. I'm currently doing laundry and I have to run around town doing errands. Stuff for the house and the last little things for Chirstmas. I'll be posting my progress pictures in a little bit since they're on my phone right now.

Anyways off to do the rest of my errands :)

Monday, December 6, 2010

Progress #2.

Well lovelies. Here's #2. I don't think there's been much of a change and the scale has been doing its usual flux.

This past weekend has been moderate but not great. I got most of my christmas shopping done and I'm completely broke. Maybe I'll eat less this week? No $$ = no food therefore no food = no eating. I need to be 130 by new years.
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Wednesday, December 1, 2010

I heart my followers

Hello my loves!

Thanks for the comments!

Fed Up: yes it is a VS bra! :) It's pretty old though :p I got it 2 summers ago when I was on my trip to NYC. We just had VS open up in Canada recently but they're in Toronto and Edmonton, so unfortunately I can either pay shipping and duty to buy online or I have to make a road trip to Toronto to go shopping. Both very pricey endeavours.

Zette: Thanks love for the encouragement! I actually kinda do want to keep a bit of my curves as the weight goes down. I have to say it's a blessing and a curse that I have a curvy figure. I can wear very fitted pencil skirts and dresses and show off the feminimity but at the same time a lot of  stuff that's shapeless makes me look HUGE and all my weight goes to my hips and tummy.

Désespérée: I agree that I can be thinner. I was 118 when I was 18 and starting Uni. I have pictures of me where I almost disappeared when I was turned sideways. My UGW is 118 but I have to get past this ungodly plateau first.

I am determined to get myself working out regularily. I might talk with the Hubby about getting me a personal trainer. When I had a trainer I was really really good. My weight was not much different than now but I was mostly muscle. I was a whole pant size smaller and I was pretty solid. I was content with my body but always wanting more. I might look into a nutritionist/dietician to set me up with a diet (ideally one who will give me a celebrity calibre diet).

The ECA and work are doing wonders but I have to make sure I keep up my water intake (which is hard when you're running around all day and talking to people. I'm lucky if I can drink 2 bottles of water during my 8 hour shift.

I think I might start posting a progress picture every Monday. The feedback from you girls is great, and I really appreciate it. I don't get help from people in my RL. They all basically blow smoke up my ass. They don't see my love handles or my lumps.

Well I'm off to read all your blogs and comment!

I <3 you all!