So today is my last day of vacation. I go back to work tomorrow. I don't want to go back to the warehouse with every fibre of my being. Part of me wants to stay home with my hubby doing absolutely nothing and just enjoying eachother's company like we have all week. The other part of me wants to finally get a new job. I've been applying all week and I'm starting to feel down about a job. I'm nervous it's going to become like it was when I first got out of school. I couldn't get a single interview. The first interview I got after 2 years of putting resumes out there was my last job in the office. I'm already starting to get those feelings of inadequacy again. I know it's premature since I've only started applying recently but I can't help it. I'm already starting to feel like I'm going to go nowhere with my life. I have my mom looking for me, I have a few people she works with looking. I even have an old employer I "interned" for back in highschool trying to help me network. I hear that I'm getting all sorts of help but nothing ever comes of it.

Basically, right now, I'm just working for a paycheque. I don't feel fufilled. I feel like I'm going nowhere with my life.

On a happier note, I'm finally getting my dining table and chairs from EQ3. Took them long enough. I can finally have all my furniture and never have to deal with that company ever again. I'll also be able to have people over to my house and entertain like a normal person. I was starting to get embarassed about serving dinner on my livingroom rug.

Next Steps: Window coverings and Art. I need to start really decorating this place. The blank beige walls are becoming quite boring.

Anyways, I hope this feeling passes soon and I REALLY hope that I at least get an interview really soon.