Slowly getting back on track

Well this week has been a whole bunch of ups and downs. T and I got into a fight. Mostly over miscommunicating. Basically She was upset that I seemed that I didn't care about how she felt about her dad passing away. Unfortunately because our only communication for the last month has been via text only it's been hard to really express everything properly. We spoke over the phone and everything is back to normal. So that's good. But because I was really upset over this, I had a huge binge. I got home from work and had pasta, vegetables, licorice, wings and cake. Very much a low point for me.

The rest of the week was decent. I didn't have more than 800 cals on any given day. On Saturday I went to a restaurant with some friends to watch the UFC match. I only had a small appetizer of vegetables. I had one drink and that was it the whole time I was there. For the rest of the night I only drank water.

Yesterday was filled with unpacking and organizing my furniture. So more or less a busy day.

Today my goal is to eat no more than 600 cals and I'll be doing some more unpacking and organizing today. I hope to get all the boxes done by the time D gets home.

I wonder what D would think if I told him I was limiting my whole weeks' worth of calories to the number of calories for one day (approx 1800). I'm not sure how I would do the division, but if I could get away with it I would totally do it. I could stagger the amounts and throw in a fasting day in the mix with it all or I could just do 350 each day.

Tonight I'm making D dinner. He wants roasted chicken. So I have to find a recipe and find some time to walk to the grocery store to pick up any needed ingredients. I plan on only having some vegetables and no potatoes, and I'm going to try to get around eating any chicken at all. Now I just have to find the recipe of how I want to cook the chicken. I have to have it in the oven by 5:30 so it's ready for when he gets home at 7.

I need to buy some spices and plain oatmeal so I can eat that in the mornings to fill me up during the day. I love cinnamon on my oatmeal. It's SOOOO yummy an d gives so much flavour for no calories :) I need to find more foods like that and I need to get more veggies and more fruits at home and remember to eat them when I'm hungry. :p

Anyways this is just one rambling post that does not make sense! LOL I'll post again when my mind isn't in a million places :)