I'm sick of everything.
Oh there's the usual, I hate my job, my body, my lack of success, my going nowhere, blah blah blah blah...well on top of all the what-all-my-latest-post-have-been-about I just got dinged with $3,500 in city and municipal taxes to pay by October 27. Just when I thought at least things were evening out financially a little I get this punch in the gut. How the F am I supposed to come up with that money when I only bring in $2000 a month and half goes to my mortgage then my cable/internet/phone bill is $250 each month plus attempting to pay off my maxed out credit cards and D is in the same boat as me. He brings in just about $3000 each month. He puts the same away for the mortgage, pays the gas bill $75, hydro $100, water $50 plus his student loan, laptop payment. We just sent off our car insurance $700 and I have to renew my plates on my car in a month $150 and get an emission test $50 and get my brakes done $500 and any other maintenece before the winter.
Where is this money going to come from?? I haven't even factored in general living costs or gas for the car. Now I know some of you will think great no spending money on food, but I can't even look at doing ANYTHING entertaining between now and December. I don't even think I can afford to buy anyone Christmas gifts. T is having her competition at the end of October and I don't think I can afford to go and 1) see it and 2) partake in the festivities afterwards.
I really need to find a new job that will pay me more than what I'm making now. I'm really freaking out here guys. I don't want to default on anything. I feel like I'm back where I was in the spring. I don't want to ask anyone for money. I don't want to have to take out a line of credit. I don't see me having any other choice.
I miss when I didn't have these responsibilites. I'm not even sure how they figure how they're taxing us. What they base the amounts on.
Sorry for the rant lovelies. All of you who are still sticking around, you are all amazing. I've been such a crappy blogger and still you all stay. I just want to thank each and every one of you.
Anyways, I have to go pick up D from work and talk to him about all of this.