Thursday, February 27, 2014

Is it just me?

Do you ever find yourself in a funk and end up thinking back to "when times were better??"

I get like that a lot.

It's like there is always something I'm unsatisfied with. Or if I did something differently in my past where would I be now? Would I be more successful? Would I be happier? Would I have achieved what I thought I would?

I always feel dissatisfied with something going on. I never really know how to be 100% happy.

Sometimes, I even think to the bad things in my past and dwell on where I would be if I hadn't changed things.

I alway seem to pull on the negative. Never the positive. I'm always comparing myself to others, their successes and achievements. I never know why I do these things. I'm not resentful of others nor do I wish them unwell.

But I'm alway asking myself, why them and not me?

I don't know.

You can ignore my verbal diarrhea.

I just have to put it down somewhere.

2 comments:

  1. I feel like this is my constant! I can never just accept things as they are, I'm always finding a reason they aren't perfect.

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  2. I do wonder how things would be if.. Pretty often..
    But then I take a look at my son and know that maybe I wouldn't have had him if things had been different.. It's hard to leave the past be.. Or to not compare your self to others when yu aren't happy with your current self.. So yeah.. I ttly get you!

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