Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Hello lovelies.

So not much new in the world of me. Just feeling generally BLAH. I feel apathetic, moody, uncomfortable, not right in my own skin and above everything else fat. And not just "Ew, I'm bloated and feel puffy!" I mean HUGE, GARGANTUAN, OBESE. I just don't feel like me. Nothing is fitting right and looks like a sack on me. I know I should be happy that my clothes are too big, but because I can't buy the right size clothes I have to make do in clothes that don't fit. I look like a whale in them. I can't stand being in my own skin at the moment. I'm breaking out and retaining water like there's no tomorrow. I couldn't take enough diuretics to fight this.

So D wont be able to come to Montreal with me this weekend. I'm not sure if I had told you all that his assistant manager got in an accident and has been in the hospital because he had a collapsed lung. So D has to work this weekend. It's sad and I have to make the trip on my own in crummy weather in the evening. I'm not sure if I should bus or borrow my mom's car and make the drive. I haven't figured out what would be cheaper for me. It's supposed to rain on Friday so that makes me a little nervous to drive by myself but the bus is going to cost me $70 plus tax. Then there is the wait time at the stations and such. Where the car I can just get there when I get there and there are no wait times.


Well I hope this funk passes. Maybe a good night's sleep will help. I know I didn't sleep well last night. I was too warm. Here's hoping.


  1. I took a Greyhound bus once and it was on the worst experiences of my life. I will never do that shit again. For the love of God, just take the car!! LOL


  2. Sorry you aren't feeling good in your own skin. Hope you can feel okay on your trip. Bummer that your husband can't go. If you can make the best of it then it'll still be fun.

  3. I know way too well how it feels to feel horrid in own skin.. But honey, lets face it and be honest! you look AMAZING!!!
    If the cloths are too big and you can't afford to buy new ones, why don't you just alter the old ones you have?
    I am not handy my self, but I think it can be a fun project :)

    I'm sorry about your hubby not being able to follow you - but I think you should still do the best out of it and have some fun! Maybe you have a friend who can join you instead?