So incredibly bloated. I'm not used to eating so much so often. I can't restrict, I'm always eating with my family. I'm a wreck not being able to weigh myself. I walk constantly during the day. Monday we went shopping in Atlantic City and walked for 6 hours. Sunday we did a 2 hour walk along the beach. And each night we walk for an hour. But I'm so bloated. I feel hideous.

I'm not sure if it's eating out most of the time (probably is). Here's to hoping that I can reduce the bloat. I really don't like being in my bathingsuit.

Or and here is an updated shot of me from Monday:


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Thanks ladies for all your help!

FedUp: I know I can let myself relax a little because if I don't I won't have fun. But I still need to keep it in the back of my mind because I don't want to come back 5-6 lbs heavier. Can't afford that.

Zette: thanks for the tip! I have my measuring tape in my makeup bag to keep track.

Bonsiomicheri: thanks for reading! Do you have a blog?? I'm not sure what I'm going to get. But whatever it is I'll have to hide it from my parents. Not sure how I'll get away to buy them. In the meantime I've packed my green tea pills and my chromium pilconate to tide me over.

So I'm currently sitting in bed at the hotel in Wilkes-Barr outside of Scranton. We had dinner at Red Robin. Definitely ate too much but I had a small burger wrapped in lettuce with broccoli as a side.

I realized today that this trip is like a tv show tour! Starting off in Scranton (The Office) then the Jersey Shore (not seaside though we're in Stone Harbour) and then Atlantic City (Boardwalk Empire). I thought it was kind of fun!

Do any of you American ladies have any suggestions on diet pills?? I'll be near a TJ Maxx tomorrow.

Anyways, I'm off to read for a bit then head to bed. Night night.
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Well I'm back at 133 and today the only slip up was when D surprised me and took me out for lunch. We went to quiznos. To combat that. I'm going for coffee with a friend during dinner time and then running a few last errands before my vacation.

I'm currently waiting at the bank to make a withdrawal from my TFSA (tax free savings account).

Thursday morning:

I didn't get a chance to finish my post from yesterday so I'm continuing today...

I'm currently on the bus, heading downtown to see T. We are doing a yoga class this morning. It's called forest and it's a core intensive class and the last position is the hand/head stand. I need a good core workout. Plan is today to only have coffee and booster juice until dinner with our hiubbies. I just have to make sure T doesn't rag on me too much.

So, somehow today I'm back up to 135. I did have that quiznos yesterday. And I guess I didn't drink enough water but with all the walking and yoga today ill work most of it off. I'm nervous about going on vacation. No scale for over a week and having to eat normally is really making me nervous. Especially since I can't buy anymore diet pills until after vacation. I can't buy any today because T will lecture me and I won't be able to buy any in the states as my parents will be with me and that's a big no no. Even though stocking up on some US pills would be awesome. Try something new that's not available in canada would be awesome. Plus US pills are stronger than the canadian ones.

Anyways, I'm getting off the bus.

Empty Shell: it will be really good for you to get out of that place soon. I think once exboy is no longer living with you the drama will start going away. He sounds incredibly damaged and wants to bring whoever down with him.

FedUp: I'm glad you had fun on your vacation. I've done things like that to hubby where I've seen something at a store that I really lie and have asked him to buy it for me. You will totally get back down. I'm jealous and in awe of your discipline. Something I can't seem to get control of.

Kat Not Jas: I'm not sure what to make of A. It's a little alarming that he relies on the booze to loosen things up. I say you just let things run their course and just wait til he comes back. It will give you time to figure out if you really want to do fwb. It's a hard thing to do especially when you have such strong feelings. I've been down that road all too often. It only ends up working well for the one who is more detatched. Otherwise your constantly disappointed. Just take your time and readjust when he comes back.

Ahhhh :) much better :) I've been wanting to comment for ages!
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How I'm Currently Feeling

I'm really starting hate this computer! No matter what I do it wont let me comment on all of your wonderful blogs!!

GAH! I feel so disconnected from all of you. Either this damned machine is too slow to do anything on, or I just can't do the things I want to do. I wish we had the cash to repair D's laptop but that's one of the last things on our priority list. Bah!

So the Backstreet Boys concert was AWESOME!

I definitely screamed like a little 12 year old girl and swooned many a time. Brian is still gorgeous, and Donnie is looking better than Mark, and Danny is just F'ing HOT. I had no voice and no hearing by the end of the concert and was super giddy all day and night!

I left home Friday morning with 3lbs lost from the week only to gain it back by the end of the weekend. It's hard when your selection of food is all either ordered in or eaten out. The sodium and high fat doesn't help at all. Most of it is water and since yesterday I'm back down to 134 from the 136 on Sunday night.

Yesterday, I didn't focus on restricting as D was home all day and we were going to my parent's for dinner for his birthday (which meant cake). I still came out on top because I made sure to flush my system with lots and lots of water. Today I start liquids, fruits and veggies all week. No carbs. Very little meat. I washed 20 raspberries at about 7:30 this morning and I still have 2 left at 9:30. I've already consumed a litre of water and am boiling a pot of tea as we speak.

I bought lots and lots of veggies yesterday and some unsweetend chocolate almond milk as well (45cals/serving). I think I'm well prepared for the rest of the week to lose some real weight. I'm heading to the gym this afternoon and plan on going twice tomorrow. Thursday, I'm taking a yoga class and going for a long long walk with T. Then, I leave bright and early for NJ on Friday morning to go sit on a beach.

I would like to say hello to my new follower. You girls seem to be popping out of nowhere these days!! Thanks for following me!

I have a phone meeting later this morning with my contact for that internship/Fashion Week/networking opportunity. I'm going to be putting the finishing touches on everything and sending out my resume. Wish me luck ladies! I really hope something comes out of this. I really need a break and really need to get out of this rut.

Anyways, I'm off to get my stuff together for my meeting and get ready for the day. I also plan on going and getting a Mystic Tan so I don't walk onto the beach with weird tan lines.

Wow, well I can tell I haven't been on blogger on my computer in a long time when I got 3 new followers without noticing!! Welcome you 3! If you have blogs that aren't linked on your profile, put your link in the comments so I can follow you back. I'm sorry about the lack of commenting lately. D's computer is broken and my computer is just f'ed. Every time I try to post a comment, it wants me to sign back in but never posts the comment. Also, my computer is super slow so it's easier for me to read on my phone through google reader.

I'm currently on day 3 for the SGD and I've done decently on the first two days. A little over but nothing alarming. It's D's birthday today so I'm fasting until dinner so I can eat with him without going over 400 cals.

I have 2.5 more shifts until my vacation!! I can't wait and I'm super excited for the NKOTBBSB concert on friday night in Montreal! I've been listening to the Backstreet Boys non stop all week! I'm just a little bit of a fanatic! It's going to be epic!

Anyways lovelies, I have to start my work day so I'll keep reading all of you from my phone!
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