Happy Canada Day!!

Well a day late but I wasn't home yesterday!

So I'm starting up the 2468 with my ana-buddy. We met on a website back in the winter and got talking and found out we were getting married 2 weeks apart. We exchanged e-mails then BBM PINs and have been talking every day since!

Anyways...I've had a bit of a rocky start to the plan this week because of my lovely period (not!) and my 200 day ended up being a 450 day. That was Wednesday. Yesterday was pretty much a write-off. I drank, I ate (not horribly but I ate) about 800-1000 cals so I'm definitely feeling a mix between period bloat and food bloat!

The good news is is that I fit into my size 28 Rock & Republic jeans that I bought a month ago for motivation. By the end of yesterday they were a little snug (mix of the food booze and being on my feet all day made my tummy and legs swell). So today I'm combating this effect and I'm fasting before I fall back into the 2468. I have to lose 10 lbs by the end of the month. I'm back working out every day, or at least walking for 2 hours in the evening. I am seeing a difference physically but my scale wont dip down below 141!! I think I just have a crappy scale. One day I can weigh in at 142 (I weigh in first thing in the morning) and the next day I'm at 147 (like this morning, but I can see why for that weight this time).

I want to put a tracker up on here so I can watch the ticker move to my goal, but I'm not sure how to post it and have the URL work properly.

Anyways girls, today is a liquid fast with coffee and water as my only intake and for lunch for that blood sugar spike I have organic, 100% fruit juice which I only plan on having half of (75 cals). So if I can keep my liquid cals under 100 today I'll be perfectly happy.

I did my BMR calculation the other day and found that if I lay in one spot all day and did nothing, I burn 1481 cals in a day just existing. So with my walks/workouts and walking at work and to and from the car etc...i'm burning just over 2000 cals a day. Which technically means, I SHOULD be losing 1 lb every 2 days.

I think my body hates me...

So after a day of fasting...

I went for a walk downtown with the fiance, and we stopped at a pub for dinner. I wasn't going to order anything but he asked me, "Why aren't you eating? At least have something small." and he kept bugging me  like that until i ordered a side garden salad with no dressing.

Not bad...

Well I got home, and all of a sudden I couldn't stop myself I was eating chips...then a spoon full of peanut butter, and a  banana, and a soda....

I...feel...gross...

However, after my gross nasty bloat day, the fasting and water did really help with that. I dropped the 2 lbs from this morning and I'm back to where I was yesterday. But we'll see what happens tomorrow morning when I step on the scale.

I will lose 17 lbs by mid july! I will be thin  and one dress size smaller come the time of my engagement photos.

I looked at photos of me from about 2 years ago on FB. I almost forgot how tiny I was. I wish I had a scale back then. I would really like  to know where I was then. At least that would give me a comparison. But I KNOW I will get there again. I KNOW it's completely attainable. I just have to WORK.

My wedding dress still hasn't arrived. I have to call the boutique AGAIN, to see if they have an ETA. I do hope that it's too big when I do finally get to put it on for the first time. I want them to have to really take it in when I go in for my alterations! :):)

Anyways bed time for me. I might post some pictures in the next couple of days of where I'm at right now. Just of my tummy, and possibly a body shot from 2 years ago. We'll see.

So my eating has been pretty good of late. This weekend I managed to stay under 1000 cals at the marriage prep course I took this weekend (they served all sorts of horrible foods) and yesterday I had under 600 (we had a big family dinner so I couldn't get away with not eating).

Today to make up for this weekend I'm not eating. It's past lunch and all I've had is organice fruit juice to curb the craving for the pasta everyone seems to be eating here in the office today. But other than that, it's just been coffee and water. I've taken my vitamins as well as my QuickTrim pills and I seem to be losing the water I retained last night. I woke up SO bloated I had gained 2lbs! I felt so disgusting with myself.

Today after work I will either be going to see my trainer or just heading to the gym. Yesterday while I was there, I was doing cardio on the bike (I did 45 mins at 105 RPM) and I burst blood vessels in my legs! :o Well no skirts or dresses for me this week! I don't want people seeing the blue and purple dots all over my thighs! :s

I have so much energy today, I don't know what to do with myself. I'm super jittery and bouncy. I think my workout will help with that. I do have to say I am dreading after my workout when the fiance is off work. I will have to try to find a way to get out of eating dinner if I want to last all day without eating. If I manage to not eat at all today, I will extend my fast tomorrow. I am taking this fast at a moment by moment pace. If I set my goals too high I may fail, but if I set up little mini goals I can probably do better and last longer. I wont go for more than 2-3 days depending on how I'm feeling. This is my first real serious fast so we'll see what happens.!

Wish me luck every one!

Fast

Doing a liquid fast today. I took the idea from Jess. Let's hope I can make it.

I've let myself go, and I've been consuming close to 1000 cals all week. If I'm eating ANYTHING I shouldn't be having more than 500.

The stress at work has been killing me. My boss doesn't like me,and it feels like he's looking for ANY excuse to get rid of me. So I'm constantly on my toes making sure I don't do anything wrong but at the same time because I don't feel valued, I'm not motivated to work. Oh, I still get my work done, but when I have a slump in my workload I don't go searching for more work to do anymore. I'm not sure if anyone out there feels like they're being micro managed every day, but that's how I feel. I keep getting told that I rely on people too much to do my work. So I try to be more autonomous. Then I'm given constant supervision...that makes no sense...and I'm told that these people are here to help me so I should work closely with them. THEN, when I have a question because I don't know something the tell me..."You should know that," or "what do you think?" Well I wouldn't be asking if I knew how to do it!

I think I should start looking for a new job. I feel my old habits setting in. I'm not happy so I stop caring and I shut off, and that means I don't watch what I eat.

So, today it's nothing but coffee (with a little milk), water, tea and a small 8oz glass of organge juice at lunch.

I'm going shopping with my mom tonight after work, so that should be fun!

I think on my lunch break I'll let you know how my wedding plans are coming along!

That time of month...

So I loathe the end of every month. It's when I get my visit from Flo :p

I bloat and I bloat and I bloat!

My weight is only 2 lbs heavier today (which is AWESOME OK compared to what I usually put on at this time of month) but everything is puffy and flabby and doesn't fit right!

So I got a GNC flyer in the paper this morning and I saw that QuickTrim is on special. So I am buying the Fast Cleanse and the Cleanse and burn packs. So starting Tuesday, I'll be documenting how this goes. Hopefully I'll see some fast results. I've only heard good reviews about this product.

So...wish me luck!

So still no followers...

I have to find out how to get people to read this...since right now I'm typing to absolutely no one.

So the last 2 days were not so bad for my fast. The way things were gonig I decided to do the fast5 (fasting until 5 pm) and then a small meal. It seems to be working. The only problem is today I haven't been able to STOP eating...

I've had a bagle with cream cheese, raisin bread and a plate of salad with brocoli, onions, rasins, beets, tomatoes and pickled red peppers. I know it's not so bad, but I'm STILL hungry! I've started chewing gum. I'm halfway through the pack I started today.

The only saving grace I have for today, is that I'm ACTUALLY seeing my trainer today. So I'll be doing an hour of circuit training today. So high cals being burned plus I'm working out outside in the sun (it's about 25 Degrees Celcius here today). So that should help me sweat out some calories as well :)

I'm looking to possibly try the QuickTrim detox plan next week. I have a friend that said it really worked for her besides the mood swings and irritbility that she had. I'm hoping I don't hve those side effects but we'll see what will happen.

Fast Fast Fast

Hello all!

So today will be my second attempt at a 2 day fast. The only caloric consumption I can do is liquid and 1 rice cake (baby steps here). BUT if I do take in any calories (in any form) I have to work double the calories off to create enough of a deficit.

Tonight I’ll be doing some circuit training with my trainer, so that’s a good few hundred calories! My calorie tracker says it’s roughly 700 calories for an hour! So I’m hoping to have a negative calorie intake of at least -600 (the 100 will come from the recovery protein shake my trainer makes me drink after every workout).

My goal for the rest of this month is that I will do this 2 day fast and then starting Thursday fast every second day. I think I can pull that off since I’m always around my boyfriend and my family. It will be especially easy to do the days I’m at work because no one is paying attention to me.

I think that’s the one good thing about not talking to anyone at work. You don’t have to go to lunches or have people bug you about not eating!

So my bf said to me last night that I have definitely “toned up” in the last 2 weeks. I’m not sure what that means but I still feel like a flabby mess. I know I’ve lost a total of 3.5 inches over the last 2 weeks (all over) but I’m still not seeing the results I want. I want to see my hip bones stick out. I want to change metabolisms with my bf. He is only 10 lbs heavier than me and I think it’s only because he’s 5 inches TALLER than me! If I could be 5’10 and be that scrawny at the weight I am right now, I would be estatic! Honestly, the number isn’t the issue with me it’s the fat on my bones! I know the as the fat goes away the numbers on the scale decrease. So I use the scale as one of my checkpoints.

So, as I am writing this, I got a call from my trainer. She cancelled on me yet again. So now I have to go to the gym and workout infront of people who are super tinier than me and look way better. Oh well more coffee and water for me. No point in getting worked up about this, my sessions are my wedding gift, so I'm not paying for this.

Anways I'll probably update later today. I should get back to work and get on with my day.

Today's Plans

Ok so to recap from yesterday!

Today is a fasting day.

Before my workout I'm just having my vitamins and Xenadrine.

After my workout, I'll have a protein shake.

I'm going shopping this afternoon with a girlfriend and if I HAVE to have something else I'll be having something from BoosterJuice. I have to check out the cals to see what type and what size I'll be having. I'll keep you posted.

This lovely lady is my  ultimate Thinspiration:

Olivia C. Munn





I know she's not on the typical list, so I'll make this confession:
I am a bonafide nerd chick. Olivia is known among the video game crowd and is the host of Attack of the Show on G4tv.


Anyways, I must be off. Sorry for the short post today. I'll keep everyone posted with my success of my minimal liquid fast for today!

You have to love relationships...sometimes they can be so infuriating.

My fiance is a workaholic. When he's at work, I can't get a word out of him when I try to text him a simple question. So when we're done work at the same time and I ask him what we're doing tonight. He tells me...go to S's have some beers and a BBQ. Which would be fine if last night he didn't dump me off on S while I was waiting to pick him up. He calls me and says, I'm going to be later so go with S and I'll meet you there. It was the first time I heard that he had made any sort of plans all day and it was 8 pm. So since I really had no choice I went. Today, he tells me that's what's happening; but he's leaving tomorrow after work to go to my cousin's bachelor party! So I though we would spend the night together (go on a date...see a movie...go for drinks or something). So I leave (we have our own cars today) to go home and he says shortly after I leave that he'll be home soon and asks me what I want to do. I tell him I didn't quite know but I didn't want to go to S's. So I get home, I shower, I change and I get all dolled up for a night out with my man. 6:00 goes by, I txt him, he says he's just leaving work. 7:00 goes by, I txt him again worried, he's at S's because S got off at the same time. I lost it. Anyways, he understood what he did wrong and I used the anger to fuel an AWESOME cardio workout at the gym. 

I'm still a little pissed but not much I can do about it.

Tomorrow the plan is to see my trainer at 9:30 (2 workout is just over 12 hours apart...LOVE it!). Then I'm going to get flowers for my mom and grandmother for mother's day and then meet up with a friend to do some shopping. I think I might go to GNC and get a thermogenic pill rather than the drugstore diet pills. I'm ready to kick this up a notch. 

I'm hoping that after this workout I'll have dropped some water weight and lost a bit more. No food before my workout, a protein shake with some rice milk afterwards and then that's it for the rest of the day! No one to care if I eat or not tomorrow! I'll have coffee and that's about it other than pills and my vitamin regimen as listed in one of my last posts. 

My eczema is starting to clear up and I'm going to try that spring water stuff I got today. 

Oh, so sometimes I wear spanx under my clothing that's a little too small for me. They help with holding stuff in and making me eat less because it's uncomfortable since they're so tight. ANYWAYS...I put on my Marciano skinny jeans (my gauge on my progress) and I had absolutely no muffin top! Mind you, that's with spanx on. If I didn't have them on, I probably would be overflowing and maybe not even able to button them up. But last week I was definitely muffin topping over them. So I'm calling this progress!

I really want to lose at least 5 lbs by next weekend. I think if I can get down below 140 I'll have passed this plateau and a proper fast will be COMPLETELY obtainable!