Happy Canada Day!!

Well a day late but I wasn't home yesterday!

So I'm starting up the 2468 with my ana-buddy. We met on a website back in the winter and got talking and found out we were getting married 2 weeks apart. We exchanged e-mails then BBM PINs and have been talking every day since!

Anyways...I've had a bit of a rocky start to the plan this week because of my lovely period (not!) and my 200 day ended up being a 450 day. That was Wednesday. Yesterday was pretty much a write-off. I drank, I ate (not horribly but I ate) about 800-1000 cals so I'm definitely feeling a mix between period bloat and food bloat!

The good news is is that I fit into my size 28 Rock & Republic jeans that I bought a month ago for motivation. By the end of yesterday they were a little snug (mix of the food booze and being on my feet all day made my tummy and legs swell). So today I'm combating this effect and I'm fasting before I fall back into the 2468. I have to lose 10 lbs by the end of the month. I'm back working out every day, or at least walking for 2 hours in the evening. I am seeing a difference physically but my scale wont dip down below 141!! I think I just have a crappy scale. One day I can weigh in at 142 (I weigh in first thing in the morning) and the next day I'm at 147 (like this morning, but I can see why for that weight this time).

I want to put a tracker up on here so I can watch the ticker move to my goal, but I'm not sure how to post it and have the URL work properly.

Anyways girls, today is a liquid fast with coffee and water as my only intake and for lunch for that blood sugar spike I have organic, 100% fruit juice which I only plan on having half of (75 cals). So if I can keep my liquid cals under 100 today I'll be perfectly happy.

I did my BMR calculation the other day and found that if I lay in one spot all day and did nothing, I burn 1481 cals in a day just existing. So with my walks/workouts and walking at work and to and from the car etc...i'm burning just over 2000 cals a day. Which technically means, I SHOULD be losing 1 lb every 2 days.

I think my body hates me...

So after a day of fasting...

I went for a walk downtown with the fiance, and we stopped at a pub for dinner. I wasn't going to order anything but he asked me, "Why aren't you eating? At least have something small." and he kept bugging me  like that until i ordered a side garden salad with no dressing.

Not bad...

Well I got home, and all of a sudden I couldn't stop myself I was eating chips...then a spoon full of peanut butter, and a  banana, and a soda....

I...feel...gross...

However, after my gross nasty bloat day, the fasting and water did really help with that. I dropped the 2 lbs from this morning and I'm back to where I was yesterday. But we'll see what happens tomorrow morning when I step on the scale.

I will lose 17 lbs by mid july! I will be thin  and one dress size smaller come the time of my engagement photos.

I looked at photos of me from about 2 years ago on FB. I almost forgot how tiny I was. I wish I had a scale back then. I would really like  to know where I was then. At least that would give me a comparison. But I KNOW I will get there again. I KNOW it's completely attainable. I just have to WORK.

My wedding dress still hasn't arrived. I have to call the boutique AGAIN, to see if they have an ETA. I do hope that it's too big when I do finally get to put it on for the first time. I want them to have to really take it in when I go in for my alterations! :):)

Anyways bed time for me. I might post some pictures in the next couple of days of where I'm at right now. Just of my tummy, and possibly a body shot from 2 years ago. We'll see.

So I'm diving back in.

Gym every day, no more than 500 calories (I've brought my calorie counter back out) and at least one fast day a week.

I went to the gym for the first time today in almost 2 weeks! I felt like a cow going in a seeing all the skinny girls working out. I did 1 hour on the bike with an average RPM of 93 (320 cals) and then the stair stepper for 10 mins (105 cals) so right now I'm sitting at a negative of 425 cals. I did have a piece of toast with 2 slices of tomato. My parents made me eat something. But with my new goals I'm sitting at a negative 925 cals for the day. Now that doesn't mean I'm going to eat all those but I can put on a face and not have to hide today.

I have decided that I will lose 17 lbs by the 10th of July. It's totally doable but I HAVE to stay vigilant! No more going to work outings at lunch. If I bring a lunch then it will be a 100 calorie pack of frozen vegetables (green giant steemers). That's how I lost the first bit of weight (I started at 156 at the beginning of my journey) I lost 10 lbs in 4 weeks. I need to get back to this. When I was focused it was the best feeling I ever had. I felt in control and that NOTHING could get in my way. I was awesome at everything. I need to get that feeling back.

I think I might go for a walk...