So my eating has been pretty good of late. This weekend I managed to stay under 1000 cals at the marriage prep course I took this weekend (they served all sorts of horrible foods) and yesterday I had under 600 (we had a big family dinner so I couldn't get away with not eating).

Today to make up for this weekend I'm not eating. It's past lunch and all I've had is organice fruit juice to curb the craving for the pasta everyone seems to be eating here in the office today. But other than that, it's just been coffee and water. I've taken my vitamins as well as my QuickTrim pills and I seem to be losing the water I retained last night. I woke up SO bloated I had gained 2lbs! I felt so disgusting with myself.

Today after work I will either be going to see my trainer or just heading to the gym. Yesterday while I was there, I was doing cardio on the bike (I did 45 mins at 105 RPM) and I burst blood vessels in my legs! :o Well no skirts or dresses for me this week! I don't want people seeing the blue and purple dots all over my thighs! :s

I have so much energy today, I don't know what to do with myself. I'm super jittery and bouncy. I think my workout will help with that. I do have to say I am dreading after my workout when the fiance is off work. I will have to try to find a way to get out of eating dinner if I want to last all day without eating. If I manage to not eat at all today, I will extend my fast tomorrow. I am taking this fast at a moment by moment pace. If I set my goals too high I may fail, but if I set up little mini goals I can probably do better and last longer. I wont go for more than 2-3 days depending on how I'm feeling. This is my first real serious fast so we'll see what happens.!

Wish me luck every one!

I took 1 lax last night and when I woke up in the morning I realized why I DON'T take them. I was abrubtly woken up at 5 am with violent cramps and the rest just isn't right to share. Let's just say it wasn't pretty.

However, after everything, I feel great! I feel energized, clean, empty and ready to start my day! I also went back down to 142. I was pretty backed up there for a while, so I needed to clean myself out. So that leaves me 2 more pounds until Saturday to lose! I can do this!

I had a banana this morning and some orange juice. I will be having some celery for lunch and maybe some lettuce and I'm going to have a booster juice for dinner. That will put me at 400 cals for the day. I pulled a muscle in the gym yesterday (I only managed an hour because of it) so I have to keep my intake low low low.

I'm keeping my intake low today so I can do a fast tomorrow and a 2 hour workout again. I need to get these 17 lbs off before my engagement photos at the end of July. Idealy befor then...well that is my goal to lose 17 lbs by the 10th!

OK...back to work for me!

Fast Fast Fast

Hello all!

So today will be my second attempt at a 2 day fast. The only caloric consumption I can do is liquid and 1 rice cake (baby steps here). BUT if I do take in any calories (in any form) I have to work double the calories off to create enough of a deficit.

Tonight I’ll be doing some circuit training with my trainer, so that’s a good few hundred calories! My calorie tracker says it’s roughly 700 calories for an hour! So I’m hoping to have a negative calorie intake of at least -600 (the 100 will come from the recovery protein shake my trainer makes me drink after every workout).

My goal for the rest of this month is that I will do this 2 day fast and then starting Thursday fast every second day. I think I can pull that off since I’m always around my boyfriend and my family. It will be especially easy to do the days I’m at work because no one is paying attention to me.

I think that’s the one good thing about not talking to anyone at work. You don’t have to go to lunches or have people bug you about not eating!

So my bf said to me last night that I have definitely “toned up” in the last 2 weeks. I’m not sure what that means but I still feel like a flabby mess. I know I’ve lost a total of 3.5 inches over the last 2 weeks (all over) but I’m still not seeing the results I want. I want to see my hip bones stick out. I want to change metabolisms with my bf. He is only 10 lbs heavier than me and I think it’s only because he’s 5 inches TALLER than me! If I could be 5’10 and be that scrawny at the weight I am right now, I would be estatic! Honestly, the number isn’t the issue with me it’s the fat on my bones! I know the as the fat goes away the numbers on the scale decrease. So I use the scale as one of my checkpoints.

So, as I am writing this, I got a call from my trainer. She cancelled on me yet again. So now I have to go to the gym and workout infront of people who are super tinier than me and look way better. Oh well more coffee and water for me. No point in getting worked up about this, my sessions are my wedding gift, so I'm not paying for this.

Anways I'll probably update later today. I should get back to work and get on with my day.