Hello Lovelies,
I can't believe I haven't posted in almost 3 months!
It's been a mix between I've been crazy busy at work (mixed with some days of I don't want to do a thing) and I've felt like I have had nothing to write about.
At work, I've been working on an overhaul of the school website while trying to get more enrolments. So it's been...fun...
D and I are doing OK. I kinda F'ed up in the last few weeks. I had a girls' night out and went dancing. It was a blast and I had a "dance partner" the whole night that made me feel attractive and desirable and blah blah blah blah you know the drill. Anyways long story short, in a moment of drunken stupidity, I gave him my number but didn't think anything of it that I would hear from him. He ended up texting me a few days later and I ended up texting back and we spend the next 2 weeks chatting over text. The conversation was nothing risque or anything daring...but still I shouldn't have been doing it. Anyways D saw a message and it blew up in my face this weekend. Now he's still making snide little comments every now and then. So this has been interesting.
Weight wise I've been OK. I finally broke 130 again. It's only been .2lbs under but it's still something. I'm working out 2-3 times a week and I've just incorporated Hot Yoga classes into my schedule. I've decided that I will be no longer eating the food the school provides. I lost 10 lbs over the summer not eating here. So maintaining and losing more won't be a constant struggle like it has been.
Anyways other than that not much as been new with me. D and I bought a new car last week. We're driving a black 2010 Mazda6. It's SOOOOOO much nicer than our old beater.
I have been reading everyone's posts but I just feel like the events in my life have been really mediocre and would just be boring for you all.
On another note: I received a comment the other day from Harlow. It's great to see she's still out there.
I miss you all lovelies and even though I've been silent, I haven't left so thank you all for still reading :)
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Good morning Lovelies,
I have spent the better part this past week just staring at an empty post box. Trying to figure out what to write about. I know my last couple of posts haven't been all that positive, or really interesting and I want to give you all something interesting to read. But lately my life has been anything but interesting. I'm just generally a boring person. I don't get out much, my weekends are spent helping my parents out with their renos and visiting with them and my grandparents.
On the weight front, I'm still hovering in the low 130s but the good thing is that most days I'm consistently in the 132s. I guess that can't be all bad. I haven't been making it to the gym these last couple of weeks. Work has me here well past evening class times and I'm just so busy that all I want to do these days is just sleep. It didn't help that I was also horribly sick this past week as well. Some sort of Spring cold mixed with a flu of sorts. Just gross.
With work, we hired a marketing consultant to help with brand recognition to up our enrolment. So we're in the middle of a new campaign with posters up around the city, radio ads, newspaper ads and online advertising. Next week we have an open house to close off the campaign. Needless to say, with working on admitting potential students and preparing for this open house has me busier than ever.
Finances seem to be getting back on track. REALLY slowly though. Our savings account is slowly starting to hold money in it. D has a good handle on his credit cards, and I'm chipping away at mine. This month has been a god-send. We managed to get a full month credit on our internet/cable/phone bill so I have an extra $420 this month which is going right to my credit cards to get a chunk paid off. It's slower than I'd like but it still feels good. D and I might also be able to buy a patio set as well on our next pay cheque. All with cash. No credit needed!
Other than that, I'm running the Spartan Race in June. Haven't really been training for it so we'll see if I can last the 5k. I'll probably be a pile of jelly with cuts, scrapes and bruises by the end of the weekend.
I've gone back to skipping lunch entirely at work again, and just having a bit of fruit to last me the day so I don't over eat at dinner time. D and I have been really good as well, cooking almost every night. There have been the VERY odd time in the last few months where we have ordered take-out but over all we haven't gone to restaurants except for the odd special occasion.
I'm also taking this opportunity this month to buy some new clothes for work. I'm in desperate need for something to wear these days. I need to find a store that sells good quality while staying within a good price range. If I had my way, I'd buy from my favourite stores and rack up a very high bill! But, I need quite a few things not just a piece or two.
Anyways, I need to run. Time to get back to the giant pile of work that is sitting beside me!
Monday, April 15, 2013
change to making comments
Hello Lovelies,
I just wanted to let you all know that I've now added the captcha verification to my comments. I am being flooded with constant spam comments trying to sell me penis enlargement pills.
Sorry for adding the extra step.
Not much new for me over here.
Still sick and tired of not budging in any way in my weight or measurements. I just feel gross all the time now. I'm not sure if it's a mental thing or if something is not working with me.
I'm so looking forward to when the school year is over so I can go back to restricting again. I hate how my boss forces me to go and eat. She is so triggering. She's always been an over weight woman, and has done every fad diet that has ever come out. It's an obsession. She's gone gluten and dairy free to try to lose the weight but it's not working. She's hiding behind some sort of rubbish homoeopathic diagnosis, but yet she is addicted to artificial sweetners and diet everything. Now, I know 0 calorie sugary drinks can be considered a god send when having a treat, but it's more than should be consumed. 2 packs of slpenda in every coffee she has and when she's not drinking coffee she's drinking 0 calorie cranberry cocktail (no nutritional value) or diet sodas. She barely drinks water and is always eating. Whenever we go to eat lunch, she is always commenting on how skinny I am, how she shouldn't be eating and that I don't eat enough. I get the comments, you can eat anything since you're so skinny!! Combine that with the poor selection of food that is served here at the school makes me hate even walking through the dining room during the day.
Anyways, sorry for the rant. Works got me buried but I just wanted to update you all on where I am.
I just wanted to let you all know that I've now added the captcha verification to my comments. I am being flooded with constant spam comments trying to sell me penis enlargement pills.
Sorry for adding the extra step.
Not much new for me over here.
Still sick and tired of not budging in any way in my weight or measurements. I just feel gross all the time now. I'm not sure if it's a mental thing or if something is not working with me.
I'm so looking forward to when the school year is over so I can go back to restricting again. I hate how my boss forces me to go and eat. She is so triggering. She's always been an over weight woman, and has done every fad diet that has ever come out. It's an obsession. She's gone gluten and dairy free to try to lose the weight but it's not working. She's hiding behind some sort of rubbish homoeopathic diagnosis, but yet she is addicted to artificial sweetners and diet everything. Now, I know 0 calorie sugary drinks can be considered a god send when having a treat, but it's more than should be consumed. 2 packs of slpenda in every coffee she has and when she's not drinking coffee she's drinking 0 calorie cranberry cocktail (no nutritional value) or diet sodas. She barely drinks water and is always eating. Whenever we go to eat lunch, she is always commenting on how skinny I am, how she shouldn't be eating and that I don't eat enough. I get the comments, you can eat anything since you're so skinny!! Combine that with the poor selection of food that is served here at the school makes me hate even walking through the dining room during the day.
Anyways, sorry for the rant. Works got me buried but I just wanted to update you all on where I am.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Feeling low (again)
Hello lovelies,
So, as it happens every few weeks, I'm in my low slump again. I just have this overwhelming sense of inadequacy. Like I should be further along in what I want to do with my life. Now this could just be stress with the fact we have 2 empty classes going into next year and we're having trouble filling spots and we've had quite a few kids withdraw for next year. So that pressure might have an effect. But I'm also feeling that everyone else just more successful at life over all.
I have friends that have kids that are managing life, family and self perfectly. Friends that are abso-fucking-lutely phenomenal at keeping up with their personal goals. One friend is now a fully certified life coach and is starting a whole new business (she's been running her own businesses since we graduated university), 2 friends competing in Figure and Bikini Model competitions in the coming weeks and have stuck with their diets and their workout plans for months without straying. Friends successful in their jobs with the freedom to change at will knowing they wont have to negotiate for their salaries and what value they would bring to companies. Friends and co-workers that are able to plan vacations or getaways at a moment's notice.
Here I am, struggling to juggle all aspects of my life. I just don't seem to add up or measure up to where I thought I would be. Sometimes I think, what's the point of trying to do more or get better when I always just seem to fall short of anything great. I'm just OK. I'm not successful, I'm not inspirational, I am just existing. I don't know how to feel fulfilled. I don't know how to be satisfied. I don't know what's missing.
I hate this feeling this general discontent.
I wish I was something.
So, as it happens every few weeks, I'm in my low slump again. I just have this overwhelming sense of inadequacy. Like I should be further along in what I want to do with my life. Now this could just be stress with the fact we have 2 empty classes going into next year and we're having trouble filling spots and we've had quite a few kids withdraw for next year. So that pressure might have an effect. But I'm also feeling that everyone else just more successful at life over all.
I have friends that have kids that are managing life, family and self perfectly. Friends that are abso-fucking-lutely phenomenal at keeping up with their personal goals. One friend is now a fully certified life coach and is starting a whole new business (she's been running her own businesses since we graduated university), 2 friends competing in Figure and Bikini Model competitions in the coming weeks and have stuck with their diets and their workout plans for months without straying. Friends successful in their jobs with the freedom to change at will knowing they wont have to negotiate for their salaries and what value they would bring to companies. Friends and co-workers that are able to plan vacations or getaways at a moment's notice.
Here I am, struggling to juggle all aspects of my life. I just don't seem to add up or measure up to where I thought I would be. Sometimes I think, what's the point of trying to do more or get better when I always just seem to fall short of anything great. I'm just OK. I'm not successful, I'm not inspirational, I am just existing. I don't know how to feel fulfilled. I don't know how to be satisfied. I don't know what's missing.
I hate this feeling this general discontent.
I wish I was something.
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Hello Lovelies,
So I had my stats taken a couple weeks ago and then again this weekend. I was told I wasn't eating enough. I'm always stuffed doing this thing, and I now check in every 2 weeks so the guy can keep an eye on my eating.
I have lost 3.5% body fat since I started which is pretty good, but I haven't had a change in weight (i've heard the whole "it's probably muscle" thing) or in my measurement. Right now I'm clearly bloated because I'm getting my period this week but still I should have seen results in AT LEAST my measurements since I started.
Who knows.
I am pretty frustrated about this and I want to know what I'm doing wrong. I've been perfectly honest in my food journal, even with my mini binges or when i've been socializing and eaten not too good for you things. but over all i've been eating very clean and have stayed away from packaged foods (minus my protein bars).
In 3 weeks time, I'm going to be keeping my class schedule as my gym schedule and upping my cardio big time. Time to practice running and train for the Spartan Race in June.
Anyways that's all that's new with me. Thought I would keep you all in the loop.
Fucking no change.
So I had my stats taken a couple weeks ago and then again this weekend. I was told I wasn't eating enough. I'm always stuffed doing this thing, and I now check in every 2 weeks so the guy can keep an eye on my eating.
I have lost 3.5% body fat since I started which is pretty good, but I haven't had a change in weight (i've heard the whole "it's probably muscle" thing) or in my measurement. Right now I'm clearly bloated because I'm getting my period this week but still I should have seen results in AT LEAST my measurements since I started.
Who knows.
I am pretty frustrated about this and I want to know what I'm doing wrong. I've been perfectly honest in my food journal, even with my mini binges or when i've been socializing and eaten not too good for you things. but over all i've been eating very clean and have stayed away from packaged foods (minus my protein bars).
In 3 weeks time, I'm going to be keeping my class schedule as my gym schedule and upping my cardio big time. Time to practice running and train for the Spartan Race in June.
Anyways that's all that's new with me. Thought I would keep you all in the loop.
Fucking no change.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
still here
Hello lovelies,
I'm still here.
I've just been finding it really hard to write lately. I've sat with blogger open and staring at the screen and haven't been able to figure out what I want to say.
Not much is new here on my end. My gym classes are going great. I feel great going and being active. I'm up to 3-4 times a week now and I don't feel like I'm going to die the next day any more. Weight has been a solid constant. I have not gained or lost in the last 4 weeks. I lost 4lbs after my first week doing this program but nothing since. I've been told I look "firmer" but no comments on weight loss or anything like that. Clothes still fit the same.
Miranda sent me her budgeting spreadsheet, and I've been working slowly away on it with my monthly spending. I've had to put a hold on working on it since our Municipal Taxes are due at the end of the month along with our Car Insurance and all of our regular bills as well. Our Taxes and Insurance are $2,200 alone. So D and I are on a tight budget and there is no extra spending happening at all this month. I hate March. We have discussed that we are going to put more into our joint account every pay cheque so we aren't strapped every March and October when these bills come around. So that's a plus.
Anyways, That's pretty much it for me. Sorry for being so Blah.
I'm still reading. I'm not gone. Just Un-inspired. I'll try to post again soon.
I'm still here.
I've just been finding it really hard to write lately. I've sat with blogger open and staring at the screen and haven't been able to figure out what I want to say.
Not much is new here on my end. My gym classes are going great. I feel great going and being active. I'm up to 3-4 times a week now and I don't feel like I'm going to die the next day any more. Weight has been a solid constant. I have not gained or lost in the last 4 weeks. I lost 4lbs after my first week doing this program but nothing since. I've been told I look "firmer" but no comments on weight loss or anything like that. Clothes still fit the same.
Miranda sent me her budgeting spreadsheet, and I've been working slowly away on it with my monthly spending. I've had to put a hold on working on it since our Municipal Taxes are due at the end of the month along with our Car Insurance and all of our regular bills as well. Our Taxes and Insurance are $2,200 alone. So D and I are on a tight budget and there is no extra spending happening at all this month. I hate March. We have discussed that we are going to put more into our joint account every pay cheque so we aren't strapped every March and October when these bills come around. So that's a plus.
Anyways, That's pretty much it for me. Sorry for being so Blah.
I'm still reading. I'm not gone. Just Un-inspired. I'll try to post again soon.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
So I finally got my bottles of OxyElite on Monday! I have to say I hate courier companies. They don't tell you anywhere that they will be charging duty and taxes when they deliver. You only find out when the guy shows up. They don't take cash, only credit cards and cheques. I don't have cheques so I had to wait until after I got paid to put enough money on my Visa so I could pay the damned $50. UGH!
ANYWAYS. So I'm on day 3 of taking them (went straight to 1 pill in the morning and 1 after lunch) and I've lost 2lbs in water weight. I know it's' only water weight but it feels SOOOOOOOO GOOD! Only because I don't feel like a giant ball of bloatedness, and my clothes fit a little better now. I start at the gym on Thursday, it's only an intro session, but I will officially be signed up for classes for the next 10 weeks. I will be VERY sore for a while lovelies. But the results will be soooo worth it!
Here's to seeing low 120s (or lower!) by summer!!
ANYWAYS. So I'm on day 3 of taking them (went straight to 1 pill in the morning and 1 after lunch) and I've lost 2lbs in water weight. I know it's' only water weight but it feels SOOOOOOOO GOOD! Only because I don't feel like a giant ball of bloatedness, and my clothes fit a little better now. I start at the gym on Thursday, it's only an intro session, but I will officially be signed up for classes for the next 10 weeks. I will be VERY sore for a while lovelies. But the results will be soooo worth it!
Here's to seeing low 120s (or lower!) by summer!!
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